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| Thursday, June 9th, 2005 | | 9:27 pm |
I understand my ranting, but I feel the need to complain. I'm done working in the caf for this year. And I'm glad. I've been having problems with co-workers. I need a break. Let me just say, when it comes to work, I'm pretty much by the book, I take it seriously. I make sure the rules are followed. As supervisor, it is my job to set an example and to keep the rules. And I do that. I'm sick of feeling like the only one that takes work there seriously... Some people find me to be a bitch because of this and I don't give a rats ass. Today, I had the pleasure of almost going Jerry Springer on me. A checker saying that it was a good thing for me that it was the last day I was going to be her boss. This started when someone threw a hard-boiled egg. I try to find out who did it. And one person, that was chilling with the checker on break, a very long one at that, decides to mess with me. The checker makes some smart ass remark about how I shouldn't be there and I say in response that if she should do the job of checker and then I wouldnt have to be up there. Thats where she started yelling at me...I walked away. Later on that night, at close, someone said "Fuck you, fuck you fuck you fuck you...." It goes on quite a bit...and sticks his finger in my face because I refused to help him clean up dish room. My reason for this is because for the past couple days he has taken extremely long breaks cuz there's "nothing to do" I felt that if he actually worked theyd be more caught up at the end of the night. Yes, they were short-staffed. But it was a slow night. Extremely manageable. I had told my boss earlier what I planned to do and there was no ill word about it. Oh and then when I go into dishroom to ask if they need to plastics room, I get "Get out of my dishroom. Dont talk to me." My response is grow up. So that's my fun night... And last night was even more fun...well just a tad more. The same person that said "Fuck you" over and over again. Was sitting at the tables yesterday, leaving the one guy in dish by himself. I go out and ask them if they're on break. When they say no I tell them to go back to work because it isnt fair for that one person to do all the work. This person says to have the guy come sit with them. So I look at him and say, I'm serious go back to work. So he says ok and picks me up around the knees. I told him to put me down once. After he didnt respond, I grabbed him by the neck and said it again. So he just let go...and because of this I was limping around for the next three hours because falling did something funny to my knee... I understand that it's slower now that it's the end of the year, but a job is a job. I'm being paid to do it and I plan to do it properly. The real world doesnt allow slacking off or messing around. I think this job should be treated the same way. Mind you I don't hate these people...despite how they are. I must not hate. I just don't like. And now I get to study. Current Mood:  annoyedCurrent Music: none | | Saturday, May 21st, 2005 | | 10:37 pm |
Eh
Heh. So I'm always super busy. It's a good thing I think. Whenever I get a break...I just start feeling really lonely...I hate it. Here I am sitting in my room alone. All my Cuesta friends have gona home cuz they're on the semester system and done with school...why the hell am I sitting alone in my room? Eh...I don't have any extremely close friends around here...well I have 2 but theyre both working right now...I want more close friends...or for the friends I have now to be closer...i just feel so out of place sometimes...like I'm not really here. This night sucks...I've had 7 bloody noses tonight starting from like 5...the last one was really bad...at one point both sides were bleeding (never good) and it was like pouring...wouldnt stop...im so used to not going oout on weekends and partying cuz im usually studying that I think I'm a little timid to go back out again...curses. I want the summer to come. I can sit back and chill. Start socializing again...or attempting to... Haha. Ironically...I'm listening to Akon right now...I have my wake up list playin...kinda funny. On in 7 chance...their other song is "Mr. Lonely" Current Mood:  thoughtfulCurrent Music: "Ghetto" by Akon | | Sunday, May 15th, 2005 | | 11:04 pm |
Haha. No Gemma. I'm not dead. :-P Not yet anyways...life's keeping me busy though. This weekend was relay-for-life. I was there for a good amount of time. Went from 1030 to 2 and walked a bit. Then I had to go back to Stenner to work on my tech writing project. Finished that about 9 so I went back to relay for about and hour and a half. Then back to Stenner again. It was the Casino night. So I went back for that. Even though I technically wasnt supposed to... (Basically what happened was there's a power struggle between 3rd year RAs and 5th year RAs over seniority or something...basically someone didn't really do their job completely. They were in charge of advertising and so basically...they told all the RAs to make posters for their own bldgs...putting their work on everyone else. And these other bldgs had plenty of other things to do. So there was this huge argument, and well, Tim, our boss, didn't want the incoming RAs to be exposed to any of it because it would taint us or something...so he instructed us all that we weren; allowed to help setup or deal or even attend.) So half of us went anyways. It's was a lot of fun. I'm glad I went. They did a really good job. It looked really cool. Really great setup. Not a good of a turnout as they hoped...probably because there wasnt any advertising or posters....but it wasn't too bad. But ya. So *someone* told Mike and Kim to leave and they just ignored them. No one said anything to me. So we stayed the whoel time. Then I went back to Relay at about 2 am. And stayed til 930 in the morning. Got about 20 min of sleep...not very good 20 min either...every time I started nodding off, Chris L. would poke me and tell me I should walk a couple laps...I kept stumbling when walking...came back and took a shower. Slept from 1030 til 345. Slept through 2 alarm clocks...was late for my AphiO meeting (it was at 3). Was awoken by a call from one of them. Went for an hour. Then went to a tech writing meeting. Then I had to get Quiznos cuz I missed dinner. Then I watched dh...now I'll prob go to sleep... This week was crazy. Got back midterms. 2 B's and a C. The C was in geo. I had waited til 3 days before the test to finally read the 8 chapters that were goin to be on the test. So I think I did pretty well. I need to make sure I dont do that again. Initiation for the frat is in about 2 weeks. I'll be an active! And I only have like 3/4 weeks of school left. Then it's going to be a nice summer break. I need one. Oh and Danny, my old elementary school buddy that I've kept in touch with, is going to visit me in like a month and a half! So, YAY! Heh...now I think I'm going to hit the sac... Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: "Feel Good, Inc." by Gorillaz | | Saturday, April 23rd, 2005 | | 9:27 am |
QOTSA are going to be in Ventura!!!!! I want to go real bad...but I'm not sure I can...I was supposed to go with my sis....but its her buddys bday...so now I'm not so sure.... Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: tv actually | | Friday, April 8th, 2005 | | 1:55 pm |
I was so bored...I went through the site and picked the ones I liked for the thing below and then I changed the text... | | 1:54 pm |
For once I'm actually enjoying messing with code... Current Mood:  boredCurrent Music: tv... | | Monday, April 4th, 2005 | | 10:47 pm |
I'm setting myself up to kill myself...taking on a real heavy load this quarter. And to make sure I don't mess up...swearing off drinking for a little while. Need my wits about me...what my quarter looks like: R.A. job - helping out with all activities. (open house, tours, dances, meetings) School - 14 units. 4 classes. one that requires a lot of group work, one with a lot of reading, another that requires alot of understanding (tech writing, surveying, geology, strength of materials) Work - work monday through thursday. 4:30-8:00. 14 hours a week. And I can't get time off because I'm the only supervisor. Only one allowed to lock up... Alpha Phi Omega - community service frat I'm joining. It isn;t part of the greek system so its ok with my R.A. boss to do it. But I have activities for that too. (Service hours) And I hope that somewhere in all this, I can find time for a social life and hopefully some sleep...that'd be nice. This week I have an R.A. meeting, an R.A. booth on campus, rush week for A. Phi. O. which means that I'm going to activities every night...and a Strengths test on Fri. and now I must go and finish my tech writing memo because I have a 7 a.m. surveying class followed by tech writing. Then whatever hw I can do before I go to work. After which I must make an appearance at the frat activity and then back to Stenner at 9 for the meeting...I think I'll just crash after that...but I'll prob end up doing Strengths hw... anyways...woo! At least I'll be active... I had 5 glasses at soda to work to keep myself awake...I didn't get much sleep last night... Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: Twin Peaks | | Saturday, April 2nd, 2005 | | 3:08 pm |
To add...
Really sad right now... Mom just called. We had to put Bismarck to sleep. He had cancer... Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: tv | | 3:07 pm |
Avoiding studying...
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Current Music: television | | Sunday, March 27th, 2005 | | 11:03 pm |
Sadness
I am sorry to inform some this way...as I have no other way of reaching some at this time any other way...that Mrs. Dupui passed away Wed. night from cancer. It's extremely depressing...guess there'd be no harm in praying for her and her family. And I've just found out that there will be no service here. Her body is being sent back to New Orleans where there will be a private service. It was in Sunday's paper for those of you to see it. Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: "Ride" by Bond | | Sunday, March 13th, 2005 | | 7:07 pm |
Ok. After thinking a little bit more, taking a break from dating is a good idea. I need time to heal the scars and to slowly build up my trust for men again...I don't need a guy anyways. I have a lot going on in my life right now. I am proud to say though, that I havent been holding any grudges. Because, I think this would be of no help to me...that it won't help me heal. So I have forgiven those that have hurt me and now I will work on myself. And then I will be ok to go out again...I hold no anger... :) Current Mood:  calmCurrent Music: "Let's Go to Bed" by The Cure | | 10:46 am |
This isn't the best time in my life...I mean I have my RA spot. And some really close friends and my family. But I keep getting sad. And it's because of guys. My first ex, the 3 monther just admitted last night that I was only supposed to be a one-night stand and that he was takin advantage of me and using me. Also that he cheated on me over break with his ex...After him, I was used by many diff. guys...and the latest one, Nate, I thought was different. But he just turned out to be a selfish prick...dumped me cuz he was scared, after he told me that I had no reason to be myself. And then also telling me shit like he still cared for me and that maybe something would happen in the future...my ass. If I was ok with the idea, I'm sure he'd be more than happy to be friends with benefits...not my way though... So to end my misery, stop it from getting worse, I have decided, that I'm swearing off guys. I don't know for how long. But there is no trust left in me. I can't do it anymore. I don't know how long it will take for it to build up again...but considering the scars...(i didn't go into depth) I think it will take a while. The ones I trust now, my guys over in bldg. 2 and a couple that are randomly scattered around, are in the door already. But after them...I'm not sure... I will not be used anymore. Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: "Hurt" by Johnny Cash | | Monday, March 7th, 2005 | | 7:23 pm |
I'm avoiding studying...
Put an 'X' next to what you have accomplished, then repost. Don't lie... Have you ever... ( ) snuck out of the house (x) gotten lost in your city (x) seen a shooting star ( ) been to any other countries besides the united states (x) had a serious surgery (x) gone out in public in your pajamas ( ) kissed a stranger (x) hugged a stranger (x) been in a fist fight ( ) been arrested (x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose AND COFFEE!!! (x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator ( ) done anything else on an elevator (x) swore at your parents ( ) been in love (x) been close to love (x) been to a casino ( ) been skydiving ( ) broken a bone ( ) been high ( ) smoked (x) gotten drunk ( ) skinny-dipped (x) skipped school ( ) flashed someone (x) saw a therapist (x) done the splits (x) played spin the bottle (x) gotten stitches ( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour (x) bitten someone (x) been to Niagara Falls (x) gotten the chicken pox (x) kissed a member of the opposite sex (-) kissed a member of the same sex (not makeout) WHEN YOU SAY KISS...LIKE MOM ON CHEECK?? CUZ SHES FEMALE>>>AND I DIDNT MAKE OUT WITH HER... ( ) crashed into a friend's car on a skateboard ( ) been to Japan (x) ridden in a taxi (x) been dumped ( ) shoplifted ( ) been fired ( ) had a crush on someone of the same sex (x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back ( ) gone on a blind date (x) lied to a friend--only to keep them from getting hurt (x) had a crush on a teacher ( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans ( ) been to Europe ( ) slept with a co-worker ( ) been married ( ) gotten divorced ( ) had children ( ) seen someone die (x) had a close friend die ( ) been to Africa (x) Driven over 400 miles in one day ( ) Been to Canada ( ) Been to Mexico (x) Been on a plane (x)Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show ( ) Thrown up in a bar (or outside of one) ( ) Purposely set a part of yourself on fire (x) Eaten Sushi ( ) Been skiing/snowboarding (x) Met someone in person from the internet IT WAS THROUGH FACEBOOK ( ) lost a child (x) gone to college ( ) graduated college ( ) done hard drugs ( ) tried killing yourself (x) fired a gun ( ) purposely hurt yourself (x) taken painkillers (x) love someone or miss someone right now (x) have had multiple crushes (x) have a crush right now Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: television!!! | | Sunday, January 30th, 2005 | | 9:47 pm |
I'm 20!!!!!!!!!!! Doesn't feel likemuch of a difference...but I've been called old...and people keep exclaiming, "You're no longer a teen!!!" It's cool I guess... Current Mood:  happyCurrent Music: "blue movie" by sneaker pimps | | Thursday, December 16th, 2004 | | 7:53 pm |
hey whats goin on.... well first quarter is over. i did really well. I MADE THE DEAN'S LIST!!! WOOOO!!! so great. really lookin forward to the next quarter. ive got 2 weeks til my next quarter starts. i start on jan 3. im still in slo right now. kinda lonely. everyones almost gone. i still have tyler and sarah here. and drews here as well. i made a lot of new friends. i moved into building 8 with sarah. met some guys upstairs. yay for new friends!!! theres tyler, tyler, robby, brad, james, drew, chelsea, chris, and chris. theyre all awesome. oh and then theres jenni who is robbys friend from sonoma. shes really cool. were gonna party when she comes back to visit in jan. im sorta seein chris. really like him. its nothin serious of course. i only met him about a month ago. i think we started seein eachother like 2 weeks ago.. oh and ill prob stayin in slo over the summer. to make some money for registration. and i got the ra job. i start next fall!!! wooo! (not sure if i mentioned that...) Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: some sneaker pimps | | Wednesday, October 20th, 2004 | | 8:21 am |
wow...its been like a couple months...well, heh... a lot has happened... this summer...i just worked. i went back to school early to work at stenner..ended up working the whole week. my summer was pretty boring. just work at bakers and at my moms office... i went up to the bay area to vist yolanda. shes like my aunt or cousin...not sure which one...shes my grandmas sister in law. she had cancer in the lungs. was spreading up to her brain...tumors...well my mom, grandma and i visited her before it was too late. wanted to see her...it was quite sad. the condition she was in...she was kind of quite. she hads quite an appetite though. shed eat anythin that youd put in front of her so that was good... got into a little spat with mary and gary...not really on speaking terms...sorta like a fall out...the summer was weird...i was always callin them to hang out. they always backed out..got kind of tired of it...so i made plans to go with dan to the fair and they actually call to hang out at the fair the next day. told them id have to talk to dan and see... talked to him and it was just goin to be me and him. he wasnt plannin on invitin friends...so i wasnt goin to either.. wanted alone time. they got mad that i didnt call. oh well. school started...i have a new roomate. her name is ruth. shes from minnesota. shes very nice. a bit religious so i try to be careful in front of her with what i say...but other than that were doin good. shes really cool. sux thats shes leavin. was lookin forward to havin my own room but now thats shes goin its goin to kind of suck. the quarter is going pretty well. im taking statics, linear analysis, introduction to transportation, and intro to cad...the classes are goin well. im actually enjoying my statics and linear analysis classes. finding them quite fun. and the other 2, which are ce classes/major classes are ok. not looking forward to all the group projects...and papers... went home the past couple weeks. went once to support dan at his alumni water polo game. then i went back another weekend cuz i chipped a tooth. had to go get it fixed... and then when i was back that last weekend to fix my tooth...found out that yolanda died...was really sad...was cryin...she died on the 10th. the funeral was on the 17th. mom, grandma, and grandpa picked me up on the way. went up to the bay area for the funeral... dan and i broke up. last week. we were going out for almost 6 months...but it would not have lasted...he doesnt understand how relationships work...that relationships need compromise. he wasnt willing to. he had no time for me in his busy schedule...he was busy studying...and hangin out with his best friend peter and that girl elizabeth because he felt bad that she had no friends...she does though...shes got like 5...anyways...i just felt like i kept giving and he kept taking...it was makin me depressed...oh and then my depression was makin him depressed and he didnt like to be around me when i was like that...of course he was the reason and i was also depressed about yolanda...bit incensitive...but we have agreed to be friends and it is better this way.. im doin better... so ya...the last 2 weeks i was sorta depressed...first with dan not payin any attention to me...cared about him alot wanted it to work out...then yolanda dyin...then breakin up with dan...and then the funeral...woohoo? well im doin much better now. ruth tried cheerin me up after i broke up with dan. bunch of us girls went swimmin like at 830 at night then went to balis for ice cream. then i hung out with mason, jason, and sarah the day after... anyways. im doin better now. just takin care of classes and homework. hangin out with sarah alot more now. YAY! new friend. yup. and with her roomie molly shes really nice. i was tlakin to sarah. might not be livin at stenner next year...it depends. im going to apply to be an ra at stenner, if i dont get it then im leavin. i fig if tim didnt hire me to be an ra last year and then he turns me down again...he wont hire me on the 3rd year. so if i dont get the ra job, im going to move into mustang with sarah and molly. its actually a little cheaper. would be fun. plus the fact that i would know who my roomates are ahead of time... speakin of new friends...i made one at the funeral. well i saw some of my cousins...i saw matt. the one that used to go here. he doesnt go here anymore. but he lost my number had a new phone. so he got my number so that when hes down here we can hang out. he wants to go line dancing. yes...ive gone line dancing..it wasnt bad actually it was kind of fun. the dances were a bit complicated though...but i love that song cotton eye joe...its stuck in my head...has a really catchy beat. and then i met a new cousin. his name is jimi. he is the great grand nephew of yolanda...im pretty sure thats how it is. were related by marriage. hes like 4ths or somethin. anyways. we talked a little and exchanged number. hes a senior in hs. lives up in the bay area. weve contacted eachother a couple times. talkin to eachother. hes nice. hes a motocross racer too. just like annies daughter, sheena (another cousin). heh. and i thought it was just uncle ed and me in the family that was into motorcycles...turns out that there is an entire group on that side of the family thats totally into them. own a bike shop and everythin. yay...ooo. speakin of bikes.. talked to my uncle ed. I GET TO GO TO THE LOVE RIDE!!! its nov 14. so that should be alot of fun. havent been on a bike in quite some time. miss it. well halloween is almost here. goin to be a gypsy. my grandma made me the costume. i have henna. need to put it on...and then i have a little black velvet pouch that im goin to carry my tarot cards around in..it will be fun. goin to the halloween dance next wed and then im goin out partyin with sarah durin the weekend... heh. well i think ill go work on some projects now...theres a lot of them...or i could play with the henna...i dunno. i think this is a long enough update. wouldnt you say? :-D Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: no music. invader zim episodes though... | | Friday, July 30th, 2004 | | 10:12 pm |
mary wants jim...hehe. ya. anyways im at garys his second party. he had one last sat. its fun seein the old friends. dans back from alaska. it was great seein him again. yup. school starts soon. sadly they wont let me move in earlier than the weekend before. i was hopin to move in early and hang out with some of my college friends. i work at bakers square now. finally got a job. good cuz now i can pay the bills for college. saw my shrink. had a good talk with her about certain things. not gonna say what though cuz im not sure who else reads this. eh. nothin else really goin on with me right now. mary is all over jim. serious flirtin. all over eachother... :-P its funny anyways not sure what else to write....gary was gettin on my case about updates.... so i think im gonna go now...ya. later. Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: gary singin sometin bout girl named maria... | | Saturday, June 26th, 2004 | | 9:13 pm |
FARENHEIT 9/11 RULZ!!! God, that movie was great. Down with Bush...hehe...way anti-bush. the stuff you learn though....so many bad things. hes gonna be in big trouble.... anywhoo. im back home. on summer break. been lookin for a job. no luck yet. applied to a bunch of places. hopefully i get one...was just fillin out fafsa a little bit ago. need to so i can apply for loans. they say im not poor enough for cal grants and financial aid. bullshit im not poor enough. not like im gettin much help. not like my mom isnt tryin though. she just has to pay for everythin else. all my insurance and house bills and for sis. so i need to get some subsidized loans...oh happy happy joy joy... eh. school will be fun next year. im stayin the same room. at the end of the year i was still the only one in my suite. time says there will only be like 4 girls up there prob. itll be chill. guys across the hall are stayin. levi, mike, and dan. walts movin into that suite too. yay! and theyre gettin 2 more guys. its fillin up over there. cant wait to go back to work. like how i have a job garunteed over there. itll be interestin tryin to get classes. im 11th priority. gonna be nasty. hopefully i get 1 or 2 good ones. dan and i are doin good. still together. was his bday a week and a half ago. got him a plate by otto heino. it looks so cool. i love that guys work. otto is such a cute old guy. really nice. liked his work so much that i bought myself somethin when i was up there lookin for dan. really like dan. :-P heh. tryin to think what else is goin on... nothin really i guess. i think im gonna go now. go socialize with my grandparents or somethin... later. Current Mood:  cheerfulCurrent Music: none | | Thursday, May 20th, 2004 | | 10:31 am |
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i stole dan's soccer ball!!!!!!!! hehe... shower time... Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: "gotta get through this" by daniel bedingfield |
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